I don't know who I am but I know what I want
Maybe I’ll just start writing and see where my fat fingers take me.
I’m Kelly: An addiction recovery coach, former alcoholic/crack addict, I currently live in Toronto, but I’ll be moving around from country to country for the next few years. I'm the guy on the right, not the statue:)
Why? Because that’s what I want to do.
I allowed my addiction to hold me hostage for 20+ years so my life and my experiences were limited.
3 rehab centers, several detox facilities, unemployability, living in a men’s shelter and getting arrested while living in a drug treatment center – just some of the situations I got myself into within those 20 years. Fun stuff.
I don’t live like that anymore.
Over the past few years, I decided that I wasn’t going to let anything stand in the way of living the life that I want to live. I want to live an adventurous, exciting life with new experiences. At 48 years old, I am going do so many things for the first time. I’m selling my truck and moving to New York City in June 2022 so I can experience the buzz of the city for 5 months. I’ll run the Chicago Marathon with my running buddies in October. I will run 2 online businesses while I’m on the road. I can’t really tell you what I’m going to be doing after that, but something tells me that I won’t be seeing much snow in 2023.
I’m not going on this trek to find myself. I don’t really know who I am today but that doesn’t matter to me because whatever I am is constantly changing anyway. The important thing is that I know what I want today. I know what will make me happy: Constant action toward this new version of myself. Whether or not living in NYC will be the greatest experience of my life isn’t even the point. The point is that the experience will force me to become a better person.
Jim Rohn: “Don’t become a millionaire for the million dollars, but for what it will make of you to achieve it”
In my experience, I don’t need to find myself, all I need to do is to know what I really want and go for it. Anything short of that is just an unfulfilled wish and a wish left unfulfilled is a very sad thing.
Here’s a simple formula we can all use:
1. Know what you really want – be specific
2. Know why you want it - it’s okay to want something just because you want it
3. Design your future self in a journal and start making changes to your life and environment to support the new and improved version of yourself
4. Invest in it – yeah, spend money. This ensures your commitment
All the best on your journey!
Kelly France - KF Addiction Recovery Coaching www.kellyfrance.com